The experience of being nude

Being nude is our true form of expression, 

it’s how we were born on this earth,

how we were to come on this planet from god himself,

The way Adam and Eve were fully nude until they gain consciousness, 

they never thought anything was wrong with their natural state,

when that consciousness reached their brain the shame of being naked clouded their brains, 

so when they felt the anger of their god for their insecurity of being nude, they were cursed with bringing life,

The life of many who've been uncomfortable with their skin, 

It traveled through generations, 

Reached me when my consciousness awoke from the state of being a lowly child, 

I was young when I felt the true form of womanhood, 

Bloody splotches and spots all over my skin, 

The way I watched every person's body carefully as if searching for recognition, 

My body felt cracked in every mirror, 

I covered myself with pretty clothes, to escape the consciousness of my pathetic body, 

I ask myself is this what Adam and Eve experienced? 

As I grew I felt smaller, bigger, uglier, prettier

The anxiousness of being aware ate me alive,

I felt like a canvas on display, with splotches of paint and eraser marks showing through it, 

I walked with fear of everyone's eyes seeing my flaws, 

I hated myself in a way where I couldn't wait to get to the form where I die, 

But I noticed something in me, 

Something in which made me think 

Is my hatred not so deep? Or do I hate myself so much I come to accept it? 

How I wished to die in the same way I came onto this world, 

How I accept myself in death but not in life?

Everyone laughed at my silly remarks reassuring me I'm beautiful, 

A goddess they call me, princess is what I've been, 

But I feel the disgusting look of my natural state in me so deeply I want to display myself to see the disgusted faces of those who watch, if those are who will tell me the truth, 

To see the judgment so I can die with the knowing sense I've always been right, 

Nakedness is something we all have, but the experience will never be the same.