summers over

On this week's entry of Kaii's Khronicles Unfiltered

August 6, 2024

Okay, so school starts next week, and I'm not ready. I finished back-to-school shopping and all, but I'm not ready to be back in that big-ass cesspool of friends, freaks, thots, and bops. It's just crazy to me because summer went by so fast, and I feel like this week is going to breeze by. :( Sigh.

Well, even though school's coming up, there's been a lot happening. The end of summer for me means the end of a few things, like the boys. If you're on TikTok, you've probably heard the song "Wasted Summers," and that was kinda my summer in a sense. The thing is, I wasted my summer on two different boys. We're going to call them Tom and Mike. Tom was the guy I fell for in June, and I liked him a lot. It wasn't perfect, but nothing is. When I was with him, it was always fun. We could talk about anything together, and I liked that. We were very different people, though, and I think that's why we were so connected. Not gonna lie, I sound corny and tender ASF, but you get the point. The way things ended between us was very messy, mainly because he went away for like three weeks. It wasn't anybody's fault, but I wish I could get real closure because we both agree ts dead, but I still care about him so much and want the best for him.

As for Mike, things are so complicated. We were definitely moving too fast, but at the same time, things felt so right. It didn't matter what we did; I felt so comfortable around him, and I always felt safe. The problem with this guy was the fact that he was definitely low-key a hoe, and I hate to say it like that, but he was. He never communicated or texted back fast, on top of the fact that he would say sorry and shii but never change his actions. I do fw him heavily though, and yes, I know he treated me wrong. Regardless of that, the things we talked about and did together, I got to see the real him. I like the fact that I can bring that out of guys, especially when they are guarded like him. It sucks kinda though, because now whenever I listen to TV Girl, I think of him. We did a bunch of cute shii, and I liked not having to worry about things when we were together. He paid for everything and didn't mind anything I asked of him. If I wanted food, he would get it; if I wanted something in my Shein cart, he would get it. And don't get me wrong, I liked it, but I'm not the type to just care about money. I felt like such a girl when I didn't have to worry about paying for myself on dates and shii. I love being spoiled. He was so caring too, and he would be so tender with me. But at the end of the day, sometimes good things gotta come to an end, and that sucks but also leaves room for new good things to come in. I'm gonna miss both of them because I care about them, and they aren't bad people; it just didn't work out between us then. I hope that me and Mike can maybe bounce back and be together for real one day, but now is not that time, and I'm okay with that.

I'm gonna miss summer a lot, but I have come a long way compared to how I was back in May and April. The time I spent growing and improving myself as a person was hard, but I liked the challenge, and I'm proud of that.

Signing out for this week, ya girl Kaii.  

Peace y'all <3