i have bad feelings

sometimes i feel so fucking anxious and bad. i feel so much fear and want to disappear

i feel like my life is falling apart sometimes - but it's all my own fault (and i really think so, i write about it not because i want to get someone's attention and pity)

i fear my future, because there's nothing in it anyway

even if my country's government wouldn't block all social networks connected to other countries i feel like i won't achieve anything here anyway