im tired hahahahahahaha

im super drunk rigth now so i probably shouldnt be posting but i dont really care so >:p

i just want someone to ask if im oaky or something like why do i have to reach out all the time

i tried doing that trend where you dont talk to anyone to see if they really care and so far i haveng talked to any of my friends for fucking months which makes sense because i suck :0 hahhahahahhahahhahahhahahahah i cant do thsi anymore i cant be lonley like this anymore i fucking hate it i hate being alone 

maybe i should just shoot myslef or something

its better than rotting in my room waiting to turn 18 to do a stupid program for welding because i got my ged instead of finsihing school because i didnt know what i wanted to be

i still dont hahhah thats fucking pathetic right ???? i mean i can practially finish an entire bottle of henny like its nothing but i cant even decide what i wanna be what im older ???????  idk i guess i just thought that i would be dead by now or atleast in some sort of institutioun i mean i already tried killing myself this year and i couldnt do it 

i didnt even tell anyone i just sat in my room trying not to pass out or throw up   

il probably delete this later but i dont really care right now i just want to make it quiet and this is the only way it goes away so weheeeeeeeeeeeeeee hahahahahahaha