I Felt You Hit Those Brakes... Hard

Ughhh.....

Yesterday we met up and had an amazing day. He really spoiled me. 

Everything was fine until I told him how incredible I thought it was. I don't think it was the same for him, but I don't know why. 

I told him I would like to talk about what being more than friends would look like .... Fucking ghosted. I got ghosted. All day. I brought him dinner because that was the plan yesterday. He didn't even text me to say "thank you" "that was delicious", nothing....

I would say I'm treading girlfriend territory. I probably am. But also, this is what my friends and I do for each other. So now that he is my friend I am extending a courtesy I would extend to A or T or anyone else. 

If it is making him uncomfortable, he should say something. Even as a friend, at least say thank you. 

It's worse than that though. I felt those brakes after I told him I wanted to explore things. He either doesn't want to or he's over it. 

Now I feel sooo stupid. 🤦 I'm out here wanting him to text me back. Wanting him to want to talk to me. Wanting him to miss me. Wanting him to need me..... He wants none of the above.... 

If we can't even work this shit out as friends, I don't think we would be able to work it out as boyfriend / girlfriend. 

I need to just take the hint. He's not interested. He's probably still dating T. I haven't even asked him about that. I'm too scared too. Jokes on me. I'm the joke. Fuck my fucking life.