dating

i genuinely dont know how people do it. it just boggles my mind thinking about how dating someone would mean waking up to a good morning text and talking all day and being open and honest with this person bc i dont think ive ever been truly myself around anyone. 

maybe i have some sort of aromantic like type of thing in my soul or maybe i am just the most alone person in the universe but i think its strange just the idea of being that close to someone. 

maybe it all stems from feeling neglected at a very young age or maybe im just super insecure and weird (definitely) but i just wish i couldve been made normal like everyone else.

xoxo theo <3