If Young Bodies Heal Quickly, Why Am I Broken Beyond Repair ?

BTW THIS WAS ALREADY POSTED ON MY TUMBLR @/we-all-love-to-lie BUT ITS BEEN A BIT SO ITS EDITED NOW Ever since you told us young bodies heal quickly I've had hope for the future. Every thought I've had, every action I've made has been laced with "it'll go away, it'll fix itself". Nothing was permanent, That is until it stopped going away, That girls remark about how I'm not worthy of love rings through my head every time I'm so much as acknowledged. I thought I could punish myself because it would all disappear. But the minute I realized you lied to me I had to sort my despair into neat, manageable, piles because I couldn't take any more risks. Goddamn these hands of mine for doing this to myself. I should have known it was too good to be true. I know it's my fault but the weight of the realization of your lie crushes my spine. Why would you tell us young bodies heal quickly unless you wanted us to hurt ourselves? I bet it was to heal your own hurting. You wanted us to break ourselves beyond repair so you could seem okay in comparison. You intended to build a world on wrecked teenagers, Moreso than it already is, So when you finally crack the code on how to heal you'll seem like a God, Have us begging you to help us, Because all we wanted was to live like nature intended, And instead we're the way we are. -Rynnsblogged // @/we-all-love-to-lie This is based off the pAper chAse's album Young Bodies Heal Quickly, You Know. If you liked this you should check out my tumblr where I post darker poems about my life :)