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...I'd say it's just feeling silly and relatable to a character.
But if they were to ask on a deeper level?
I'd say it's so tiring. I hate feeling like I'm in a body that isn't mine. I hate feeling like my soul is rattling at my ribcage, trying to get free and be who I know I am. I feel TRAPPED in a world and body that ISN'T. MINE. A NAME that ISN'T. MINE.
At the same time kin shifts can be so fun and freeing! Wearing cool clothes based on my kins, Doing activities I liked and remembered in my source, and interacting with sourcemates! It can be so cool to have a glimpse into that past life and have memories of times where I was ME again!
But then I remember I'm not them anymore. I'm just another life. I've been forced into a new, uncomfy body that makes me want to PUKE when I look in a mirror. A body that I shouldn't be in. I'm NOT my body. I am NOT my DNA. My body ISN'T me. And I hate it. I hate it so SO SO MUCH!
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yoon - jae ! !
seek therapy ! ! cornball..
Hahaha....Please fuck off.
by Will !! (Fictionkin); ; Report
being rude about it isnt gonna make them want to get therapy.
by Grotesca; ; Report
womp womp
by yoon - jae ! !; ; Report
Who do you think you are
by Grotesca; ; Report
KO/TKO 🍉
YES. While sometimes being a fictionkin can have it's perks some people will NEVER understand what it's like to stay up late not being able to sleep because you don't feel like yourself, only to have a dream where i AM myself again and wake uo and try to go to sleep again to be back. I do anything to go back. I HATE how I feel. But I also wouldn't trade I for anything. It's so conflicting. It's fun one day, excruciating the next.
SWISS
real.. also do you get upset when you see people claim that they are [insert fictionkin here]'s number one fan.. i get so mad.. like no u are not his number one fan I AM. it makes me so angry for such a stupid reason and idk if its just me..
NO BCS THAT'S SO REAL...like buddy no u aren't??
Ion know you!! I would know my number one fan ty very much: MYSELF
by Will !! (Fictionkin); ; Report
so real
by Grotesca; ; Report
Rosesofblood
wtf this is not what a fiction kin is... please seek therapy and get offline in the nicest way possible /gen
genuinely concerned have you looked into therapy
(you don't have to answer that but I STRONGLY suggest you do therapy this doesn't feel like something you can just call a silly burden this feels like psychosis.)
I do go to therapy.
It is not psychosis, Just me exaggerating my body dysphoria.
Also there are multiple definitions of a fictionkin. There are different ways people experience it. Please don't call it psychosis again. It really makes me uncomfy. /Gen /lh
by Will !! (Fictionkin); ; Report
body dysphoria over not feeling like a cartoon character doesn't feel mentally sound. You sound genuine though so to me it feels like something you should unpack with your therapist. Idk if you're transgender or nonbinary but the way you worded that feels like a mockery to the community, and also those with body dysmorphia...
by Rosesofblood; ; Report
I'm sorry if it sounded that way. I get body dysphroia due to memories of having past life's of those characters. I'm also trans myself.
If you would like me to take down this post I can. Otherwise there's nothing much I can do about it, Since that's just how I feel and how my kins work for me. It is not just because I don't look like them. I genuinely feel like my skin and body is wrong. It is the same as any kind of dysphoria. Not being comfortable or feeling 'ok' with a certain bit of yourself.
I can delete this, if you'd like.
by Will !! (Fictionkin); ; Report
i honestly don't care what you do with this post im not triggered enough to police someone else to delete their post that they made. Stand up for urself bud. All I'm sayinig is to maybe unpack this with ur therapist shrugg
by Rosesofblood; ; Report
Ok. Thank you I guess. I'm fine though. Have a nice day.
by Will !! (Fictionkin); ; Report