hard making friends (lil vent)

I do have a good amount of friends, multiple friend groups actually, but I don't feel connected to anyone.... not enough to call them my best friend. I just want someone that I can call and chat with on discord at 2 am and talk abt our feelings n shit, then we play mc afterwards and yap abt our special interests. My interests are pretty niche, I'm into colorful stuff and horror/weird core media... I'm also a vocaloid fan... and a stinky emo kid who is obsessed with aliens and stars. I guess my interests aren't too niche but it's still hard for me to find someone who has the same interests as me. I feel like I can't talk abt my problems to anyone, and when I do vent to someone I don't feel any better. No one says what I want to hear, and I just feel like shit afterwards. I'm a good listener, and people feel comfortable talking to me abt their problems, and often tell me how they feel understood for once... I wish I felt that way. Is it so bad for me to want someone who understands me and makes me feel like I actually belong somewhere? Anyway... I just needed to hide my thoughts here, none of my friends know abt spacehey/they don't know I have an account so no one should be able to find this... sorry for anyone who is in the same boat <3