twilight problem

Does anyone else like only can watch twilight like 2 times?? like i literally cant watch twilight because first of all it gives me ptsd and second of all it just makes me mad like i just hate bella and its not just bella its everything! And third of all it makes me want edward and then i feel really sad... i mean i love twilight but i just cant not watch it or else it just makes me sad and mad...

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