Infatuation to a Benign Soul

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Infatuation To a Benign Soul

Oh the daylight rays now beam through

Shining while I gaze at this enchanting view

I am now pondering what next I'll have to subdue

Please, I don't want this masquerade to continue.

While the palace thinks I'm deep in slumber,

I must continue my routine, not unfamiliar

I cast my sights to the horizon in wonder,

How my life would be if I were free like the other

Embellished in jewelry, my reflection appears

And suddenly a frown and a stream of tears

An uncontrollable force I longed to let out

My heart is in pieces like my mirror no doubt.

Time is ever fleeting, am I bound to be like this?

A slave to nobility, not entirely a bliss

I'm a paradigm, my true self is locked far away

My real desire is to feel content again someday

Nostalgia? I do not reminisce at all.

My old self? All I remember was my downfall.

My vulnerability has never been completely displayed

Truly I dream and crave for my life to be remade

But alas it seems my pleadings have been answered,

I can no longer utter words, I've been left enraptured

My heart yearns to be alongside a mortal's presence

I can see her soul, it is filled with benevolence

Admiration and laughter, it's been ages since I felt like this

The way her hair tangles in the wind is a sight I can't miss

her voice softly spoken in a whimsical manner

Every sunrise now feels like a gentler demeanor

Now I'm reminded that a delight for me is too good to be true

I was a fool to believe that I'd been given a chance to renew

Woefully, what pumps blood into my veins suffers from aches

Seeing us suffer from our unavoidable tragic fates

This can't really be the time of our last adieu

I don't even know how I'll journey on without you

Mournfully I can't fathom that you're in my arms like this

I'll exchange my immortality so I can be your miss

Timelines later I'm reborn in a newer body

Offering my immortality didn't save my somebody

Yet again I happen to be another castaway

In the shadowy depths of my heart, an abyss now lays

With every breath I take, I'm always longing for you

How can I traverse this ceaseless lethargic blue

I've been in despair long enough, my life no longer has hue

But like the shimmering stars above, you were my pursuit. 

thank you for reaching the end!! constructive criticism is greatly appreciated! I am just starting poetry hehhehe and this lowkey has some mistakes but I don't feel like changing it i am quite tired of looking at it 💀💀