Random

Looking at the scars that cover my body just brings so much regret and remorse, it's a massive pain but i brought this upon myself and I have to deal with the concequences that come with what I have done to myself despite the fact that I have no recollection of ever doing such things to my body. The scars will always be a reminder but for what, I shall not ever know. My memory will always be there but I cannot get ahold of it no matter how hard I try.

The scars hold me accountable for something that i can and will never remember, something that will most likely stay hidden from me for as long as I may live. I look upon my arms and thighs with confusion but also regret, even though my memory is gone and i have no understanding of what truely happened.

Maybe its a trick of what my brain has done or maybe it's something more, that I will never really understand. It's a strange feeling that will never go but I will have to uphold it no matter how far I would like it to go.

My arms and thighs will always be a trigger for these emotions even though I cannot recall what I did, it's a feeling that will never subside but it will always remain.

This is a random ass post of fuck knows what but man, I write good 😭