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i just got hit with the realization that im turning 18 in less than 2 months, im no longer a silly teenager which feels weird actually. i always used to say "oh when i turn 18 im gonna do this or do that etc" but now that im turning 18 i dont know what to do at all, its kind of overwhelming knowing that my old life is probably over.
its kind of depressing thinking about how im never gonna be able to hangout with my friends after school just laughing or doing random shit, im never gonna sit at the back of the class with my friends again, im never gonna see my favorite teacher or that im never gonna be able to hug my friends again since me and them never talked outside of school except in a few occasions for example graduation.
i dont think im ready to grow up, it feels weird and scary especially that all of this is hitting me at once. it'll probably get better i know but im just scared and anxious and abit sad of reality.
aside from the sad feelings and anxious thoughts, i still do have two best friends that are basically my brothers, i dont say it to them much but i really do love them and care about them.
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xxRebellious_Emmaxx
I just turned 18 almost a week ago and if it helps, just remember that you likely still have several more decades to live and that you don't have to stop having fun just because you've reached a certain age. Plus, think about all of the freedoms you get as an adult and more opportunities to make new friends and get into a relationship.
Prømenade
Its perfectly normal to feel overwhelmed, I totally understand how you feel, I got the same feeling just earlier and I'm still terrified as I get closer to adulthoo. Plus and the bar is already set as you get older that your magically supposed to know what to do even tho adults know full and well that they didn't when they grew up. There will be new opportunities and experiences and experiences that will bring joy just as before. Your friendships and those memories you made will still be apart of you, just trust that you'll find your way one step at a time :)
i hope so too, i appreciate the kind words from someone going through something similar
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