School and feelings

School plays a major part on my life and i never truly realize until summer hits. School is such an easy thing to plan around and helps me keep a strict regimen even if im not feeling the best because i cant really afford to skip out on school. But with summer everything just crumbles. My family isnt very fortunate money wise so we cant really go out to do fun stuff for summer, so most of the time im in my room holed up away from everything,. This wouldnt be so bad but this summer my older sis came back from college and my older older sis came from mexico to visit. I am happy theyre here but they have seem to completely ignore me. Atleast me and my dad are still cool but idk a part of me hates it and i dont know why. I tried connecting with them both but i can never truly feel part of what they do. I want school to start again.