28/07/2024 | 12:28

does anyone else get weirdly nostalgic for smells?

i mean, im sure people do. but like. i had to use a deoderant i havent used since before march— and now i just get a wave of oh wow i've changed im a fully different person than i was four months ago. 

surely, not a fully different person. but ive changed so much. the smell just reminded me of a different time i suppose. im sure if i change deoderants again and suddenly have to use the one i Currently regularly use im gonna have another weird emotional crisis.

but wow. its no longer just music. i listen to mcr or misfits too long and i get sent back to my january-march period of listening to them almost* exclusively. i mean the mcr hyperfixation was november-march but i think it really peaked in febuary— and now wearing the same deoderant i did at that time kind of sends me back; even if it's just a few months it's such a nostalgic period for me. im not sure why.

God, all of last school year is such a strange time period. i have fuzzy memories yet the stuff that stands out seems so random. the music i was listening to, the deoderant i was wearing, that same damned hoodie i wore nearly every day since i got it.

i know im reminissing over something that happened a really short time ago, but it makes me feel the feels yk? like MAN it was an awful period for me mentally (and physically, still recovering from my broken leg) but i do wish i could go back sometimes. 

then again, hey, what time period for me isnt mentally a hellhole? it's always just some alteration to how it is.

anyway, that'll be all for this. i swear if i start playing misfits while smelling like this im gonna do full skeleton makeup again LOL /dram