healing

Hey everyyonee. There is something i'm really curious about regarding mental health. I want to know how healing works.Because personally, my mental health is not good. I find myself in this never ending cycle of healing and finding myself doing terriblly and feeling like shi again, which makes me feel like i'm never okey. I go through some depression episodes at least once every year, and when i find myself doing ok and happy i realise i'm not actually happy, but i'm just distracted. And distraction, hobbies or wtv just don't work. And i also have really bad anxiety which i think is the main reason for all this, it gets severe and it affects my life a lot. I hope if someone knows how to heall tells me hereee!!^^