music!!

id like to do music as a full job but I'm hopeless. I can sing and I can write songs, but music theory makes me want to die. I took music gcse it was the greatest mistake of my life. I need people to play the instruments! I have friends who play music but they simply don't care enough to do much. which like yeah I get u bruh but I can't do everything myself! I need to do gigs and get some vague following if I want a record label to sign me and that's just not possible I'm afraid. oh well, sociology is the next best thing.