I will NOT live a life of spite

it is literally so fucking difficult to live without being fueled by spite and pettiness. I am trying so hard. I love loving, but goddammit do I feel like I need to constantly have the last word.

I want to give my love towards all things and people, and that means giving it to myself and people I do not like as well.

It's not satisfying. It's hard. But I feel like this is the best outcome for me.

I'm a lover not a fighter (even if I wish to fight so badly)

anyways, enough about me vauging about trying to apologize to people I don't like for the basic fact that I feel like it's the right thing to do.

this to me isn't "taking the high ground", its just trying to live life according to my values. Philosophy ruins you, man.