me yapping abt how i tried offing myself or wtv

hi, im nomi, im probably one of the biggest losers on this earth.

i have mental issues that have been diagnosed (i dnt wanna say what cus im not comfortable with that) 

and i tend to hurt others and...myself, mentally and physically (unfortunately often)   

on july 26th 2024 around 4:00ish am i tried killing myself due to family problems, my self image, ik this sounds corny but 'voices in my head' and from getting groomed online. all this mental and physical pain was too much for me i felt like i wasn't seen or heard from anyone. i didnt feel loved, the only sort of attention i ever gotten was from 18 year olds on discord manipulating me into sending n*des (i just turned 15 not too long ago) 

my life fucking sucked and i saw no purpose in it anymore 

i remember with blurry vision i was sobbing as i walked to the bathroom, i looked for the razor blade ive been hiding underneath the sink. when i found it i took it and stumbled back to my room.

thats when it happened 

i basically sl*t both of my wrists and beld out, i layed on the floor with my eyes closed waiting to die from loss of blood, i was sliently crying as i slowly started to feel disoriented and light headed.

next thing i remember  im in a hospital room with my parents looking pissed off.

when my mom was getting ready for work she randomly decided to 'check up' on me to see if i was sleeping. only if i did it later, i would be resting in peace.

 i understand that you guys barely know me and im yapping on a SPACEHEY page abt how i tried offing myself n wtv.

i js need to let out everything ive been feeling and telling my story. 

i know i didn't have much time to talk and communicate with you guys but yall seem like really cool people! 

im supposed to be sent to a mental hospital by next week i think.

it was nice (barely) knowing you guys and i hope yall end up becoming amazing ppl in the future!

good bye ^^ 

-the one and only, neomi (nomi)