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Guys I'm actually shitting myself over my gsce results bc what the flip. I just got like a letter for a meeting with my college after results day and omllll. Like I literally cannot get anything under a 5 in anything and it's really bad bc in my mocks I got like two 4's. Anyway I just calculated it all and it looks like I'm not getting into this college at this point. Like I'm actually done for and the other college I applied to I've just ignored all the meetings they've set up. 

Anyway guys so I've had this tab open for a bit and it's like a good couple hours later and rn I'm trying to clean my room. I went to go move my mannequin out the way and as I picked it up it's leg literally crumbled underneath me so I'm gonna have to burden my mother with the task of fixing it for me if she so kindly accepts. Oh also I am so obsessed with so many different things rn but mainly like Shigaraki and stuff.

I get so annoyed when people only notice things they want to when it comes to characters. Like when people acknowledge something in a character because it suits how they see them instead of the character themselves. I also hate when people say things like how a character wouldn't do such and such a thing. Like cmon man, if the character is written good like they are and they're 3 dimensional then they're not set to specific rules. Like they're written like a real person and believe it or not but real people are often hypocritical. Like I hate it sm but I think I just get too into it and too I'm just a hater tbh. 

It's the same with real people too like celebrities. Like you've liked a celebrity for years, congratulations most people do, but they turn out to be really bad or smth comes up and people are like 'oh but they wouldn't do that'. Babes do you know them personally? Even these people's best friends come out and they're shocked that the person has done this bad thing but they cut them off bc it's the right thing to do but these fans that have never even seen the person with their own eyes are still convinced that they know them best.

Anyway I'm going to my first ever concert just with my friends and without my older sister for once. It's not a big one just in a bar I think but still I'm so excited. It's in November but I need to think about my outfit bc I've been slacking lately with my fits. Like I have a style trust but I have multiple and I just choose the easiest style most of the time. Especially when I'm late because I'm literally always late and I always feel bad but I literally don't even know how it happens. Yeah so lately I've just been wearing jeans and stuff bc bro I'm just so tired and I like my fits even when they're kind of boring but I've been dying to dress up but as much as my room is spilling with clothes I don't have anything to wear. Like I need more dresses and I've seen some skirts I wanna get and I'm absolutely sick of normal fishnets because I'm not being funny but I've worn fishnets like every outing since I was like 8 so it's gotten a bit old for me. This is the thing though because I want all these clothes but I have no money for it all. I've had a look in like every charity shop around me too but it's all like primark clothes.

Inflation is crazy though because I'm trying to save my money for my pc but if I wanna buy a singular shirt it's like £30 and god forbid I decide I wanna buy a pair of shorts bc the cheapest ones I found were literally £80. I'm not made of money mate. That's why I wanna look in more charity shops but the ones in town are so expensive like why last time I went in one the jacket I was gonna get was £60 like no thanks. 

Yeah so what am I gonna do for the concert because by November all my money will have already gone on my pc, clothes for college, college stuff in general, and new shoes I wanna get really really badly. Actually I have a few shoes I wanna get. It's all to expensive man. Plus I need to get new bearings for my skateboard bc it's like really old and they're so worn down like as soon as I push and put my foot back on the board it's already stopped again. 

Oh and I'm meant to be doing my room bc I need to sort it out and move stuff about so I can get my pc but I also have some ideas for it. Like I wanna get some more posters and I wanna get like a usa flag with one of my favourite characters on it but the problem is that I have too many favourites. I would just get Shigaraki bc I need to get more figures of him. I already have one figure that I got for my 13th birthday but I need more. I can't emphasise how much I love that man like I have loved him since I first saw him at the end of season 1 when I was 9 years old. But anyway yeah I'd get him on the flag but I feel like I wanna get a maze runner character on it. And then it's between Minho and Gally. I love Thomas and Newt and all but Minho and Gally are my mains. Like I love Minho sm he's my #1 if I had to choose but I love Gally so much as well and even though I'd rank Minho above Gally I think I'd get Gally on the flag. Yeah so that's the plan but omlll I'm just sat in bed all day and my room is literally indescribably bad. Like a lot of my friends have messy rooms but I have yet to seen one as bad as mine and this isn't even as bad as it's been in the past. But yeah I'm gonna have to go clean it in a minute but idk how much I'm gonna get done when I have to move furniture and my parents bedroom is right underneath mine and they're all asleep so they'll get rlly mad. I'll figure it out anyway.

Oh and I have a party tomorrow and I wanna dress up but I know I'm just gonna wear jeans again or smth bc I'm just so so tired like it's so much effort putting a proper outfit together and making it look good. But yeah.

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