maybe hell was the friends we made along the way

day two of being stuck in this hell. ryan and spencer are still nowhere to be found. i miss them. even if they annoy me sometimes. haha. spencer made us food not too long ago. it was really bad. layton got ahold of it while spencer was making it. he ended up messing up the sauce. how does one mess up mixing water together with a powder? he really is something. to put it lightly. spencer also organized simply plural today. he spent three hours doing it. at least he let me sing along to source music while he was archiving members. met maddox today too. hes apparently ryan from high school. weird guy. really likes blink. i respect that. listened to our vinyl again today. hearing my older self sing is strange. i still cant wrap my head around that. theres a version of myself running around whos the "real" me. and hes forty. good to know that ive lived that long. and i did this whole music thing for almost twenty years. sad that it had to end. but grateful. ive heard so many stories about how big the band has gotten in the past nineteen years. its really strange that most of the world knows my name. to some extent at least. i could barely handle the small crowds. how the hell could i handle ones a hundred times larger. this post is getting too long. lots have happened today.

bren out.