Maybe I'm not someone that's meant to be loved.

I'm not quite sure how others do it, I like, well no. I don't like to watch as they hold hands with their significant other. I wonder how they did it. Who confessed first? I wonder how happy they must have felt when they realised their feelings were mutual. I wonder what its like being able to listen to songs people write about love and being able to relate. God, how does that feel? Having someone to hold and cherish, someone you can call yours. 

I tried believe me I did, all the stupid methods and prayers, I tried the talking stage, I tried getting strait to the point, I even tried playing hard to get. All it ever got me was rejection and being ignored. I tried. 

Is this a sport for people? Why am I failing at it so miserably.