the thoughts that have been plaguing me...

i have been missing my friends all night. i keep being told that they are here. but that is not them. they share a face. thats it. i dont get how the others do this. spencer filled out my likes on simply plural. whatever that is. i didn't even tell him what i liked. he just knew. creepy. started listening to a new band today. hey monday. great band. girl has a nice voice. woke up at 2 in the morning today. spencer woke up to check twitter and never fell back asleep. speaking of. i ended up passing out in front last night. i was so scared then. still am. i still dont know how to feel about this whole system thing. ryan came to front a few hours ago. i got so excited. but it wasnt him. he didnt even look my way. i just want my friends back. not in my head. i want to text them. i want to hang out with them. i want to hear their voices. but i know that will never happen. this really does feel like hell.

bren out.