happiness but only the desire of having it [250724]

I don't think I deserve happiness but at the same time I really deserve it's something that our mind need to be better and see things in a better and calm way, but I really don't have any of these, I act nonsense and my actions are empty 

i sense my soul trying to burn

I wish I was more happy, with really cool ppl around me, so I could rest and smile more without insecurities

I wish people see me more, more than just my skin my corpse 

I am imprisoned in this body of mine forever and I can't develop it