y'all I think I'm in the beginning stages of a ego death

So I've decided I wanted to start a spiritual journey so I started meditating. And recently I have been feeling scared, having anxiety, having trouble sleeping, and a lot of paranoia. Idk I haven't felt this paranoid before its started when I begin meditating, Also its currently like 3:58 am when I'm typing this lol. I honestly want to grow and all so ego death to me isn't really terrifying, what's really terrifying is what ya have to go through and experience when its comes to ego death. Its crazy