Feeling Jaded

"Giving up the numbers already? I really wanted to see 21!" me IGNORING you:

I think I do not want people recommending me games in general. Sometimes I get bored with the one game I've played for five years straight and want to try something different. I have my few personal choices, some games on my Game Boy Advance (going through Mega Man Battle Network 3 rn), old nostalgic flash games I loved as a kid and there's always just... not gaming and spending time just reading books or listening and reviewing music. I have ways I can kill time and not be bored while doing it. Sometimes, though, I get asked to play something with a friend and it's something I do not already have. I guess I gotta branch out...

...and then I regret it every single time!!! I could go on for aaaaages about how much of a letdown it is trying to get into different games nowadays. First of all half the time I gotta pop my wallet open and pay. Was asked to play Skyrim, did it once and hated it so much I've never wanted to do it again. Been asked to play it every now and then with the promise it'll be different but.. do I want to use a good chunk of computer space to get only one more run before I stop having fun again? No, I don't. It's a waste of time, spending multiple hours setting up mods and blowing $40 to get only an hour of someone trying to gaslight you into thinking this is worth it. 

Second of all, to push in that last bit further, most of the time gaming with friends involves them trying to keep convincing you to play whatever regularly like it's gonna change the way I think about games when I'm playing with a deadpan :| ass face the entire time, if not groaning because it's some bullshit that comes up that I can't be assed to try and Stockholm Syndrome myself into enjoying. I don't think I want to have a varied taste when ultimately all that's gonna get me is hot water when I say I don't like shit. Like, the reaction I get is that it's something wrong with me where I don't think X game or Y feature of said game is the second coming of Wasalu M. Jaco and that I'm the only person who has an issue with these things. 

See, it's especially tricky because I've always loved class based FPS games and they're a dying breed nowadays. TF2 is dogshit, Overwatch is bearable if I'm being nicer than I should be, and Paladins will always be a tech demo in my eyes. But as for other genres? Fighting games get on my nerves, RPGs are always riddled with dumb shit, indie platformers throw difficulty on difficulty for sweats with no life and it's like... I'm just trying to chill! I work two jobs and have college and personal relationships I gotta deal with! You are not going to One Piece me and tell me that your favorite cock and ball torture simulator gets really good once you spend 40 hours getting your dick shot by a .37 special. That shit is not happening, I'm too busy and too jaded to willingly lose hairs learning some dumb fucking riddles some troll under a bridge is trying to poke me to care about and act like I like it. I'm good on trying new games, man. It's just not worth it.