art regression is toughÂ
i cant inherinently describe the feelings i went through, the shock of failure, the pain of acknowledgement, and the heartbreak of starting over.
i was doing so good, i was satisfied at my work at once, i felt like i was on the right direction of my path of progression,
but no, i regressed, again.
well i cant blame anyone else but myself,
i got tardy, lazy, and lackluster,
just doing anything else rather than learn and improve her work
passing it off as "good enough", rather than the exceptional masterpieces i dream of wanting to create.
the reason for my art was for my own self satisfaction, my own pleasure of creating something i was proud at, something i can say i made with skill
yet look at me, anything but
i hate the creations, they don't express my progress, making me wonder if there ever was progress? or am i just skilled at fooling myself?
its stupid, hah, i learned realism just to improve, yet i cant go back into a stylized style?
each time i create a semi-realistic portrait i turn up its realism that each muscle can be seen?
its like my progress halted, stopped,
i compare works from a year ago and i cant see wether i improved,
its all the same to me.
my loved art is torture
i guess that's just anything i love at this point.
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x.miarartsy
i dont know what category this goes too i just write while i go T-T
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