I hate my friends!!

okay so i dont rlly like my friends. theyre so annoying... i dont rlly like my friends either. im pretty sure they think theyre better than me, except for one friend (thx amy). one of my friends, emily (fake name lol), say that im transgender and that i sound like a man (im a cis girl). and she keeps asking me if i think i have feminine or masculine features (ur not fcking slick ik what ur trying to do). she also calls me grandma bc she says i look old for my age. it makes her feel better abt herself bc she "looks 12" even tho shes 15. and it honestly makes me feel bad abt myself bc she is really pretty and im not. but honestly shes still super insecure for that.

and my other friend, lily (fake name as well), lied to me abt a guy being interested in me. ik she probably did it to make me feel better but it makes me feel so ugly. like seriously. she rlly said that a senior was interested in me. is it funny to make me look stupid or something?? and then later she said that some guy brought flowers for me, the guy was her friend and he has a gf. idk why she said that. like are you trying to get my hopes up to humiliate me or something? and why would you say it in front of your other friend too.

and i dont know why the do this either. i dont tell them im insecure or try fishing for compliments. ik lily probs knows bc she saw me write on my english notebook saying that i wished i was pretty but that was it. emily probs thinks im ugly.

it rlly sucks being the ugly friend in a trio.