˗ˋˏ ♡First Entry ˎˊ˗

Hi!

I don't really know how to start this, but hey ;) How are ya? Good? I'm glad to hear.

I found this site as I was looking for somewhere on the web that is kind of slow and old-fashioned—a place where I could get a profile page for myself and a space to document whatever I want, but still have it be social in a way. I ran away from my home country, and I'm finally taking the step that I should've long ago: going off-grid. My phone has become a window to the people and environment that I fled from; I'm still on edge and nervous all the time, even though I’ve finally got the freedom I wanted. I got a flip phone, and I'm waiting until I get a physical token for the University site's authentication thingy. It's annoying, but it'll be over soon.

Forum culture was huge growing up in the Gulf in the 2000s, and I live and die for that aesthetic omfg. So I'm way too happy to have found this one random night 😭

Many things pique my interest. First and most importantly, I love biochemistry {I'm going to uni for it rn (つ ͡ꈍ ͜ʖ̫ ͡ꈍ ) } and everything about life and what is alive! Humans, plants, bacteria, animals, fungi, and all! (Not American cockroaches though—ew, af. I hope they all die.) Biochem is essentially the building block for all that we call life and all its enthralling intricacies!

From growing and taking care of plants to cooking and preserving foods, making and drying spices and herbs, making essential oil and hair 'n skin remedies, tea brewing, knitting, and watercoloring, to Arabic poetry and calligraphy and English penmanship, to Arabic perfumery and incense making and scent documenting, to Ney playing, history, geography, and Middle Eastern politics. As we say in Arabic, "A flower from every garden." Obviously, I suck at some more than others; I just know I love them.

I feel I can do more than just read and think about stuff. I want to be many things. Among those, a writer. I always have my notebook with me at all times, as I have this jinni living in my brain; she needs to vent and blur out unsought opinions or explain things I already know lol. I used to want to be a teacher and tutored lots of kids back in high school, so I guess I have this weird thing where I love talking and explaining things to people nicely. But since I ran away and am living a hermit life basically, there's no one to talk to.

I want to put out stuff—literally anything—and create something. Even if it's bad, it can be my way of practicing my writing skills. I just need a void-like outlet where I can go wild and talk about whatever I want, however deep into it I go, and not worry about how good it really is or how cringy I come off as. I just need somewhere to document whatever I need to document, even daily stuff that happened or like stuff on my mind that needs venting. I know I'm not saying anything new—shut up and leave me alonnnenenenene. I wanna actually put the effort into topics and stuff that I'm into (cut to me forgetting I even wrote this a few weeks later) and see what I can do when I really want to do it.

Also, this site is super freaking cute, which makes me not want to leave, which is perfect for this. Thank you for reading my nothings, and to many more hopefullies ✧･ﾟ:( ͡ꈍ ͜ʖ̫ ͡ꈍ ):･ﾟ✧

-❥Lumi