This is literally a vent because im tired and am running out of things to distract myself with

I feel to tired and so lonely no matter how many people i surround myself with i feel like none of them truly want to be my friend or truly want to hang out with me if they ask i feel like they just want someone to be there with them because they are bored i don't feel like a truly likable person, and i can understand why, Ive never truly liked myself. I think that if i don't dress up and if i don't look pretty then im just another boring person but to dress up i want to go out places to thrift maybe, but i have no money so id just cry. And i hate asking people to pay for things because then i feel greedy and like im asking too much. Idk i think maybe i should start skating around more maybe that would give me stuff to do. Anyways i don't really expect anyone to want to read this idk 

waow... am i a mitski reference???