I just want to feel alive again

Whether its somebody I like or something I really enjoy, I wish I could feel the happiness and the joys of being alive. 

I don't ask for very much. Something real and in-person would be nice.

Friends. A girlfriend. Some kind of involvement. Genuineness.

But I am as socially crippled as the next person who grew up using the internet as a crutch. Figures.

Will I continue to be this way?

I cling to the hopes of days gone by as it makes me feel better than how I feel now.