i wanna call/vc people so bad (neutral rant)

genuinely i jst wanna talk to someone. i love being on call with ppl (preferably only one person but multiple is also cool) i used to do it all the time, but then i lost those friends

whenever i offer to watch something with someone, its ALWAYS because i jst wanna call you. and have fun watching something :[ i dont ever jst randomly call ppl because 1. they never pick up, and 2. what if im bothering them? they never go around randomly calling me, so why should I? also like. i have waaaayyyy too much free time... but ik not everyone is like that. i ALSO know not everyone even likes calls so i feel BAD FOR ASKING!!! 

im also jst rly bad at asking for things. i feel bad for asking to call for no particular reason!! and when they say no, i feel even WORSE... like oh.. okey..! ill stop asking then! because i feel like the fucking ANT HOLDING A STICK.. THING i dont know what that is im so sorry but thats how i feel when i ask that a second time. like "what about now!! oh? not now? ok..." later.. "what about now!!" I NEVER DO THAT BECAUSE IM SCARED TOO!!

also off topic but not rlly i fucking hate my voice. its SO ANNOYING. i feel fucking stupid for laughing or giggling bro.

moral of the story: DONT B AFRAID TO ASK ME IF I CAN CALL!! its my favorite thing in the word pleaseppleaeplselapelapelspelpsleaplaplepalpelapeslade pppleeeezzz i know im annoying but. brocken hart emfjdi...💔