i got dumped

I got dumped twice in the same year. My last ex dumped me after my friend of 8 years and my paternal grandmother passed away. He told me he wanted to support me, but we couldn't be in a relationship. My most recent ex persistently texted me while I was ghosting everyone around me. We met after a month of talking, went on our first date, and stayed overnight at his place. I was meant to revisit him tomorrow, but he sent me a message telling me he felt disconnected. 

I feel partly to blame for my recent relationship. I've been working the whole summer to gather enough money for my tuition payments, and he repeatedly asked if I could be available more so we could go on more dates. I can't rely on anyone to pay for my education, but he made it seem like it was such a nuisance to try to spend time with me. 

I forgot to mention that my last ex-partner was 20, and my most recent ex-partner was 25. I'm currently 19.

Anyway, this was just my dumb vent post for the night. Feel free to leave comments?? Maybe some of you have a better common sense than I do.