This is how I feel

About Alexandre, he was a bastard... what I can say, maybe he was not such a bastard, he loved me and cared about me, even one day I was dying of menstrual pain and he called me while driving to make me feel better and damaged his tire.. he considered me a funny goddess, he laughed at my jokes and even talked to me in his work schedule, of course the bad thing was the age difference. 

I think I was in love with him.

Obviously not anymore. 

But he was attentive, the last time I reviewed the chat he kept looking for me for about 5 months, writing me the relevant things that had happened to him that I unfortunately had to leave on seen.

After that he went on with his life and didn't look for me again. I wanted to marry him but it was not the right thing to do and the best thing is that I am with someone my age. 

I thought, when I finish the legal complaint and I turn 18 and all that maybe I can get away from my father and look for him again, 

but life makes much more sense now.