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i’m not sorry for bad grammar. my english teachers weren’t too strict with me. now i’ll try to express how i feel.
there’s always someone who can spoil everything. and now i don’t even understand if it’s me or someone who i usually suspect. i always feel like a terrible person after choosing myself. i go away and then blame myself in my sensitivity or aggression. i prefer personal boundaries and honesty to staying in a good community with that one terrible person in it.
there were three cases. all of them took place in telegram so i won’t talk about spacehey right now. why do i write my text here? because i just have nowhere to go. i’ve lost all my loved and respected communities.
i’ve lost two admin communities and one subscriber community. these people are mostly together now. these people don’t miss me at all. they sometimes hang out in real life. have fun. eat bbq and walk together. and i just left because of one or two jerks who were the most loud and annoying. they felt like they are the champions after dropping me out.
and i can’t return. those personal haters are still there. having fun. without me. and i am just drowning in my isolation and loneliness with no energy to solve this problem. and it’s happening so often that i just think that it’s all my fault. maybe i was too toxic or annoying or demanding? i can’t understand it unfortunately.
have you ever felt something like this?
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Charlotte on the web
I don't think you are at fault here! You sound like a brave person for putting yourself and your boundaries first. Not everyone is as brave as you for doing so, even if it means losing your community.
Some people are just assholes for no reason or sometimes you just don't vibe with someone. That's just how things are. But I think that if you stuck around you would have felt even worse, because these types of people can ruin your entire day.
And if other people choose to stick around jerks that's their problem!
You deserve to be surrounded by people that actually care about you and aren't mean. If the other people stopped talking to you and instead chose the side of the haters, that's their choice. That just means that you have made the right choice ditching them.
Maybe you can chat with the people you felt the most close to, and you can keep contact so you aren't completely alone. But I don't think you need to stay in a community if you don't feel like it.
You will find new friends that actually care for you! It just takes some time. Don't give up!
omg i haven’t checked sh for a long time and woah.. such a comment.. thank uu :з
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