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9:53 

today was really funny, although i don't remember half of it. i barely remember anything anymore. the past week has been very blurry for me and i can't remember mostly anything.. but today i had a really good lunch, so that's something to remember! tuna and macaroni salad with bread. im hungry right now but we don't have much to eat so.. a girl can only dream 

things have gotten overwhelming lately, feeling more upset than usual, and i wish i could feel better. 

in other news, im listening to oingo boingo right now, listened to garbage for a bit and my friends liked it ❤️

i feel like my style is changing.. the persona of "ririchan" is comfortable to me, i like it. i guess i just like to be anyone but myself. having fluidity in my identity as well, helps me feel better, as i never like to be trapped in a box. i never want to be one thing. in the end im just a black void and that's good for me!