meeting up with my ex-best friend tmrw

we split up on sorta bad terms, or at least i was in pieces when we did cuz we were closer than close for 5 years but then suddenly boom it was gone

then i got a lot better and discovered that life without her was actually not full of misery and death but it was actually quite a relief sometimes and altho i missed her sometimes i was happy. now she contacted me again after some months, asking if we could keep up a casual friendship (after she clearly stated she was a 100% done a few months before) and i mean i was like ok. sure

so now we are finally meeting up again and i am a bit nervous but i know it will probably be very easy like it always was. still it feels weird. she isnt my best friend anymore and we arent codependent anymore (sometimes she even annoys me) (tbf we were very toxic in many ways during the time we were friends but at the time i wouldnt want anything else u catch my drift?)

anyways so thats crazy wish me luck ig?

updates later!