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been so tired lately, a little depressed but kinda not?? idk i was going crazy earlier this year like i was getting high every fri/sat/sun and then i stole some shit and couldn't sleep for like 2 weeks and ugh i was so fucked up but it was fun. i was skinnier and had bright platinum hair and was prettier too likeee. i mean thats been like the 2nd time in my life ive enjoyed destroying myself and the other one i just yelled at my parents and didnt eat but at least i got prettier that fall this spring just made me break out and gain weight and shave my eyebrows off and get snakebites.

but anyways this summer has been going so fast and sometimes its been fun but mostly its just been boring?? like yeah hanging out w my friends super fun love them but otherwise im too scared to walk anywhere because my parents think im buying drugs. ive js been around my parents and its sucked ass because me nd my mom keep getting into arguments over the stupidest shit like ughhhh.

im so excited to move out but thats not until hs ends and that feels so long UGHHHHHH.

and most of my friends will have graduated by my sr year and tbf they don't go to my school and even the girls my age r at a diff school but whatever new school fresh start hopefully

i also hope i don't have gym as any class but my last because how the hell do u do an hour of cardio and not get sweaty and have to redo ur makeup and take a shower. and i am NOT showering at school + my hair would get flat + my makeup takes like 30 mins so id have to spend whatever class id have after that getting reready so basically skipping and the only classes id want to skip r the important ones and i can't do that every day for a semester. i guess i could but my parents would make me take out my piercings and ground me if i got below a b

anyways how r y'all how's summer