꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ more life things !!

hello again !! it's been a while since i've posted but i guess life has been happening ??

so, my mean girls hyperfix has stayed steady, still watching it constantly and still ranting about it constantly, in fact, i might watch the new movie with my friend mars (https://spacehey.com/profile?id=2719548) in the next few days !! 

i finally stopped matching with a person on discord, we were friends for a while but it's fizzled out after a bunch of arguments, in which i was fed up with resolving 100 times over :( plus he has an awful friend who kind of told me death threats in a jokey way but we weren't friend so it just sounded awful ? minding the fact that same friend talked bad about me behind my back, so i wasn't really interested in somebody who was fine with those actions !!

i redid my discord profile to regina george !! it's some fanart i found on tumblr, it's very cute even though it's the 2004 regina and not any recent ones (which are my personal fav, though i still like the first movie) !!

oh also !! i joined this discord called starless, it's very pretty and it's for women only ! you have to verify, which i was INCREDIBLY nervous to do, but it ended up being really welcoming and i've even joined their minecraft server !! i also won witcher 3 (plus all dlc's) in that server, so i'm very happy !

i adore one block minecraft, i've designed a whole thing for cherry wood and a circle and all, also the way you level up with experience and all, ahh !! also i think i'm very smart to make a bow and arrow and then surround the specific block with fences, so i can run away when there is a creeper and then shoot it :))

also towa bird's new album is ARUHJUH i love 'ew' sm !! also chappell roan is just so nice on repeat, even my music taste is lesbian, i wonder how i ever thought i liked men !!

if one more lesbian edit comes up on my fyp i think i'm going to explode !! i'm actually screaming with how many reneé rapp edits, billie eilish edits, chappell roan edits and MORE show up on my page !!

idk, i just feel so happy being attracted to women ? like i've been lying to myself my whole life and now i feel great about it, i don't hesitate to say girlfriend anymore !! though i think the two lesbian flags in my room are very obvious about it, i don't think i'm going to publicly talk about it at school since bullying still exists, and i sort of have an ex (a boy) that's in my class, so i'm not going to really risk it !!

i need more pink things for my room !! i made a bulletin about my room before, but i love it so much, especially with the few stars i drew above my bed, and the mean girls logo i'm going to eventually paint on my wall !!

oh oh oh !! my dad is supposed to be getting bait tomorrow so we can go fishing !! last time we went and i only caught one fish, but it was practically my first time, so one is better than none ! plus it was really fun to do with my dad, he taught me quite a bit !

i've also been watching a lot of video essay's lately, which i adore, mostly about horror !! i love all these stories, and more specifically, the twelve man tapes lately ! the fact it's so disgusting with the actions (it's essentially fnaf told different) with things like child murder and cannibalism, but at the same time it views so naturally, as if that's meant to happen, as if it's normal, it's such a psychological horror to the point i adore it !!

talking about psychological horror, in a video essay i was watching about a psychological horror game, it talked about the story lolita by vladimir nabokov, and gosh did it throw my head for a whirlwind !! i mean, the fact it's something so evil, something that's so black and white in a fact basis, and still the way he wrote it makes it seem so natural, like he was convincing the reader it was a grey area. the idea of an unreliable narrator is just so interesting to me. what if you lived with a parent who was essentially an unreliable narrator ? everything you ever knew was a lie, it wasn't true, it was faked. and reading a book where it's like that ? you never know what is the truth, what is a lie, and what is manipulated to act like a truth. having to read between to lines, understanding the real meaning of the sentence, understanding what's real and what's fake, i just love it !! i love psychological horror, and even though this isn't exactly a horror novel, just with horrible actions, i think i might have to read it !!

anyways, enough with the psychological horror rants, i'll do some mean girls rants in the following days !!

thank you for reading ♡ .ᐟ