17/07/24|12:02 PM|Blog #4

Helloooooo besties how are we doing at [time you're reading this]

So!! I've got some pretty good news and updates and things to share that I'm really happy about!

For one, MY BOYFRIEND IS COMING UP LITERALLY TODAY HEHE. He's flying here from Europe and when he lands he's gonna meet the rest of my family and then we'll be staying in an place together all on our own for almost 2 weeks!!!! We'll be going grocery shopping for food that we'll need and then we're gonna relax for the rest of the day, then tomorrow I'm gonna get to try English breakfast! Or at least a good imitation of it that he can make with American food. We're gonna have our steam decks and play games together and watch movies and order food and go to places and basically pretend we're living together!!!!! I'm so exciiiiteddddddd. ugh I can't wait.

My adderall has really been kicking in! I've been having a really good sleep schedule and I've been trying to be productive and make things in my free time. Which speaking of time IT'S BEEN GOING SO MUCH SLOWER SINCE TAKING IT. Feel like I'm in goddamn Max Payne with how slow the world is moving compared to me. I thankfully used that slowed down time to clean up my room a lil since my grandma is gonna wanna clean the whole thing while I'm gone. She just can't sit still even at her age. I hope the slowed time translates when my boyfriend comes over. I'm gonna be so sad when the last day comes and he has to leave, but I have plans for after!

I told my mom that I wanna start taking driving lessons, and when I DO get my license, I wanna get a job! I'm kinda hoping while I'm taking those lessons I find a remote one, but if not I'm gonna apply to be a janitor. I don't wanna interact with people and plus I feel like there would be a lot more positions open for that then the ones for being at the register or being a waiter or something. But really I just wanna get money to save up so that the next time my boyfriend and I wanna meet I can visit him instead. I'm nervous about that since I'd have to take a plane and I've never flown before in my life, but I'll do it for him.

Also my mental health has gotten so much better! Especially after having that talk about driving and jobs with my mom, I feel like I'll finally be able to do something other than be lazy. But until then I'll have to do what I can.

That's all the important stuff out of the way! Now for the silly stuff.

I'm getting back into a gmod phase, and with BitView inspiring me with how it revives doing things the old fashion way, I think I wanna make a gmod series! I've got no ideas for what the story will be yet or what'll even happen, but it'll come to me.

I'm also making my first ever complete gmod map! Before it's just been me practicing and trying to see what I can do with Hammer and such, but I've been using Hammer++ since they've now got an official gmod version of the program, and I've been making a map since using it! It is nowhere near done at all lol, think I've only made about 10% of the map that I've been planning in my head, but I'm really hoping I can get a good final result!!! I'll probably post it to the workshop once a completed version is finished!

That's everything!! I'm soooo excited to see my baby and I can't wait for us to have fun together. I'm really hoping I can do good things in the future.

Bye besties!