my goals in life

i am someone who loves to overthink and plan out things. i dont like intense schedules, but i do like a general layout and i *hate* when plans go disarray. 

anyways, i planned out my future and i desperately want it to go the way i planned. after college, i want to spend a year studying to become a nursing assistant and spending my days working and saving money. by 23-14, i want to enroll in nursing school and begin my journey becoming an RN. i will work as a nursing assistant as a way to pay my bills and, eventual, loans. after becoming an RN, i work in the labor and delivery unit until i am 30. i will do this in chicago. i love chicago. by 30, i want to move to germany and take the steps to become a nurse in germany. i will work there until i am 35-36. i will get married and have kids in this time period. by 37, i want to join doctors without borders and spend, at least, 10 years helping young women and girls who may not have access to save birthing areas give birth and raise their child in the first year of their life. i will travel for a few months to a year then spend time with my partner and children. i will continue to do this until i find myself wanting to work at a hospital again or do something else. i will be 47 by this point so i will most likely retire in germany. i am dreaming of moving to a cottage before i retire (around 45) and having multiple vegetable and fruit gardens. i have fruit trees and animals i take care of. i dream of a beautiful lake in my backyard that i can see from my house. i want to die in this cottage.

i find myself trying to become flexible and have the idea that this is may not happen and life in unpredictable, but i can't imagine any other life i would live that would make me satisfied.