there is no fucking way my ex decided to try and come back into my like rn...

its been around two weeks since i cut things off with him and to make a long story short, he would be clingy and sweet at first but really didnt know how to talk, he told me he had diagnosed bpd but idk us teenagers think of anything these days so i dont remember if i didnt believe him or accepted to deal with it, anyway he starts ghosting me and messaging me once a day compared to me messaging him every hour of the 24. so when i thought to myself "wtf did he just suck up all my self respect?" i just unfollowed him everywhere and went on about my day, next day i get a message saying " u r the one ghosting me now" i tell him its only fair, so i start asking him why did that and hes like "idk just felt like it" so then i told him that i undertand if he wants to ghost people or run away from reality but he should atleast give a heads up, and he says he would do that if he cared about people, i really wanted a fucking apology from him coz i just wasted my time but hes like "why would i lie" so then i tell him "then why would i wanna keep talking to u" and hes like fair enough, before that tho he tried giving ME a choice to keep on talking w/ him or leave it at that, and i was hesitating because i missed feeling love, as if that was gonna be it...

anyway so finally we left each other alone and finally im back in my right mind with my self respect trying to focus on friends and wtf to do with my life (trying not to get depressed) and i went on the best shopping spree of my life yesturday, today i would have my everything shower and clean my room, i wake up, sadly check insta aaand....

"omg" "hiii wsp" "wyd"

i think this was the most emotion he'd ever show over text (partly of his personality shit and also cuz he dont know how to talk to women) as im writing this it lowkey sickens me to remember his voice, because i actually really fucked with his music. and whatever part of his face hed show me, i think the fact he wouldnt show me his face shouldve been a red flag, im honestly not sure what he was trying to do, i think he dosent want me to forget him cuz he loved the idea of me giving him attention and not having self respect, but INSTAGRAM SAVED MY LIFE, theyre not letting me message him back because he dosent follow me anymore, and they wont let him follow me... i swear its a sign insta is trying to protect me.

now im stuck writing this as if i dont have better shit to do

anyway idrk what to do i just wont let it ruin my everything shower, but i lowk hate the fact that he tried to manipulate me because he loved my attention and didnt give anything in return.. not even a taco bell meal, but i actually really liked someone for once and idk i wanna mess with him or get some kind of revenge, or come back to him but i know he'll just do the same thing