turning my spacehey account into a personal diary - Episode 2: Friendship and love

Hello, readers and myself.

 I've been thinking about my friends and childhood loves, and whenever this topic comes up in my mind I think about one person: Filipi.

 He was my closest childhood friend and we met for the first time at my 7th birthday party. You know, it was a genuine, childish friendship, as if he were my brother. He used to visit my house every day, asking me to play with him or to go out for ice cream. I spent a lot of my childhood with him.

 After I moved away from home, it became difficult for me to meet him and we occasionally drifted apart when I was 11 years old. I still saw him sometimes, of course; But it was so rare that we were embarrassed to talk to each other, as if we were strangers again. But there was still a friendship there, or rather a passion; genuine, soft, shy but beautiful.

 Of course he never openly admitted that he liked me, but he gave all the signs! It's not delusion. 

 So, over time we became more distant and bla bla bla, but one day he decided to send me daily messages and that lit a light in me, a feeling of love and happiness. I was anxiously waiting for messages from him, good morning, good night, anything! But the idea that he wanted something didn't even cross my mind; something dirty, perverse, intimate; and I think you already know what it is.

PHOTOS.

 Photos of me, my clothes, private parts, semi-nude... all kinds. I put up with his requests, but I never sent them (I made up excuses :p) and I always changed the subject. But at some point we get tired, right? I blocked him, disappeared from everything and felt empty, upset.

 An innocent, childish friendship became... this? 

 I put up with it for a long time because I really liked him and saw a future of our own. If he didn't think sexually about me, do you think it would have worked? Do you think he would accept me as a boy and love me?

 I don't like him anymore, I just put up with him when I'm forced to see him, but I feel sad about what that passion has turned into.

Well, this episode ends here. XOXO ^_^

Arion.