cw for si and viewing food badly

uhm idk. like trump getting shot and how everything is just getting fucked up is just getting to me, and i just want to die... 

also my aunt ordered pizza again and i dont knpw why i just feel awful. i havent been able to exercise so i just feel so ugly and fat. i dont want to be hwre anymore  i know i have to stay but its so hard

i jusr wanna cry

also idk if i can talk abt suicidal stuff like it said dont display it. ITS ITALICIZED AND IT WKNT LET ME TURN  IT OFF HELP