summer thus far (warning: dumbass suicidal ramblings)

summer break 

basically month of it is gone already

wow

i cant believe how little shit ive done 

it doesnt help that i had a bit of an episode this morning over fuck all.

i do want to kill myslelf, but at the same time, i want to create something first, a magnum opus, a final swan song, something to be remembered for. of course these delusions of grandure must stem from my feelings of nobody understanding me, and my desire to share them, that being said im just too scared to go to therapy. how oxymoronic. oh well, ill die someday, just not today.

sigh

back on track to what this post was about i suppose. summer break, it uhh ,, sure does happen fast.

at first glance/thought it doesnt feel like i did much of anything at all, though now i reflect on it, i suppose i have done quite a bit 

i got back into acnh and have been playin a bunch of it !! 

i did start using treasure islands, they're pretty neat, much easier than waiting for someone on nookazon to turn up with a certain item or villager. i even got every villager i want onto my island!!

bought a couple new games offa steam,  and have been having a lot of fun with em !!

my favorite outta the ones i got defo has to be postal 2 !!! ive played it quite a bit and im slighty over halfway to getting every achievement !! 

i suppose thats all i care to write, im tired, my melodramtic episode from the morning just fucked up my whole day i guess :/ 
ahh well. ill try to cheer myself up. think i might rewatch the postal movie tonight 

farewell for now