I’m still standin’ (yeah yeah yeah)

Just got back from camping with my boy, and first off, best week of my fucking life-

We saw Foodhouse in Vancouver together, and it was both my first concert, and rave. Everyone was so sweet, plus we got a photo with Fraxiom together. Fr I’m glad we didn’t get creeped on bc I was worried abt that.

The rest of camping was dope too, we did a lot of bouldering, and we spent a lot of time wandering over the train tracks by the camp site. I also tagged a skatepark for the first time, wich was nice despite the heat..

There where so many firsts on that trip it was rhrhfhhfhcbfbsbch-

Speaking of firsts, I also had my first kiss on that trip. It was a joke for sure, cause I’m not sure moaning “meat man” in each others ears then smooching counts as the most kiss-worthy thing you could possibly do, but still, it was in the mouth and I sure ended up feeling things.

We were sleep deprived and silly, and we are reallll comfy with touch, so it was bound to happen, but damn dawg. Me and him talked abt it too, so in terms of relationship-ey stuff, we’re good, I’m glad we can communicate like we do. Honestly we’re better than some couples more often than not. 

Even though we talked abt it and ik where we are, I still feel things tho, and I wonder if missing him as much as I do rn is just the usual amount of yearning for us, and I just forgot how it felt, or if how close we where for a whole week made it worse. Prolly the ladder.

It aches how much I miss him and as of rn, and I literally just got off call with him 56 minutes ago, and we’re currently waiting to chat on discord rn (he prolly messaged me rn actually but fuck him y’all need and update). This bitch made me demiromantic and I will never forgive him. 

Bro if you’re reading this imma kick your ass (and also cry bc hgbnggn not sure I need you seeing this tbh)

But yeah I keep thinking abt that smooch. We’ve come to the conclusion that we’re not ready to do that together, and I never wanna do what makes him uncomfortable, but :3 I’ll be waiting boy <3