im bisexual and i love you

while I hope this only comes off as slightly weird but to everyone who doesn't want to read a stranger pour their feelings out, this is my coming out post as a bisexual 

throughout my life, I feel as if I wasn't raised right, not in the manner of not having what I needed for a good life, but my parents were always either preoccupied or treating me as if love was conditional, something that I had to earn and if it wasn't either of those things I was yelled at hit at almost constantly, and it led to me becoming emotionally repressed in several ways with the emotion that came to the forefront as of recent was love, and it led to me thinking about writing this 

To love is to appreciate the company and support of someone throughout all the pitfalls of life. Somedays, life can feel like nothing but pitfalls now. Surely, especially recently, I feel like I've been through so much in so little time. A problem I've had to bear is the feeling of not being good enough for anyone. while I have friends to remind and support me that my life matters, it's a feeling that will, at this moment in my life, never escape me, and I wish the happiness of my friends more than anything while I care almost laughably little for myself 

Even as I write this, I'm in love. I prefaced this with everything emotional to show how love is an emotion that will find you no matter what. It is almost beyond understanding the two people I believe to be in love with are already spoken for, which, while it does leave my mind racking for what to do to solve my "issue," the advice I want to give and hope somebody out there will take is that you are young and beautiful you will fall in love again and over over again no matter the circumstance whether it works out or not you will find someone for you no matter the situation. This leads back to my confession that I started this post out with this love, whether reciprocated or unrequited, which has been found all across the gender spectrum, and while the proper term, I suppose, would be pansexual, I'm too tired at the time of writing to consider that label and I genuinely believe that whatever love I have left in me can be with anyone I could imagine anyone by my side helping me through my troubles while I help them through theirs 

for the few that read this i love you 

for the ones i wanted to tell i love you through out my whole life this is my confession 

to everyone that reads this love yourself and others with your whole heart

"you are beautiful and you are young you deserve to have the best in life" - Crystal LaBeija