wow. huge life update

Hi everyone! I've been the busiest person on earth and could not maintain posting on here because I've been reeeeally burnt out. But I think I'm healing pretty well so I feel like it is my duty to post a big fat update!

Soooo first of all I finally moved out. I now live in a student dorm (with my own kitchen and bathroom, lovely!) and study English and Japan Studies at a really nice university. I'm so grateful I got to move out of my mentally abusive household, though I miss my friends very much. I cherish the time we could spend together but now I have to come to terms with the fact that I only get to see them a handful of times per year. Sad stuff man.

I've started going to the bouldering gym, and even though I couldn't make it there this past month because of the workload, it's a lovely hobby!! My dumbass thought working in the food industry would be a good idea but unfortunately I've been having problems with my job non-stop..... thinking about quitting currently, I don't even make minimum wage. welp. Another GREAT hobby I've started is cooking. Now you may think: "But Oliver, everyone has to cook in order to survive!". And you're right but somehow this has become so much bigger for me. The excitement of trying out new, adventurous things paired with the great feeling of caring for myself has made cooking soooo much more than just serving as a tool for mere survival. I truly love it! I've especially been dabbling in Asian cuisine :) Aaaand yet another new hobby (if you can even call it that) is that I'm participating in a musical! We're playing Jekyll & Hyde, it's so exciting!

Another thing I'm actively doing is taking care of my mental health. It's still very bare-bones and I don't really have solid methods yet but I'm slowly overcoming my self-hatred and everything else I won't be mentioning today. So yeah, pretty proud of myself for that one! Additionally, I finally fully came out to my mom as trans. That's gonna be a whole other blog post because I have a LOT of thoughts about it but in general you could say it went pretty okay. That's one less thing to worry about!

Other than that I've really been enjoying my personal freedom and the agency I now have over my own money. I've been buying decorations for my dorm apartment, some CDs and little knicknacks just because I can. Y'know, I missed out on a lot because I grew up really poor so this feels nice, even though it took me a while to feel okay with spending money on myself. And don't worry, I don't have a spending problem!! <3

Overall I'd say I got a lot of quality of life back. It's sort of surreal sometimes but I'm very happy about having moved away, even though it was the hardest decision of my entire life, it was surely the correct one. Bittersweet, truly.

Thank you for reading! Tell me in the comments if you remember me and tell me a fun fact about how your life has changed in the past year! Love you!

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