i am sooo scrd that my bffs dont actually like me. like terrified.

idek why i feel this bec they dont do anything 2 make me feel that. but im just always so alone and i think that why. i havent left the house in like two weeks now. and the only reason i did leave the house was 2 go 2 my sisters house like... idk. im embarrassed too, my mom isnt surprised bec no ones really ever invited me out so this is normal. but the way my mums bf, his kid and nephew look at me is embarrassing. like i know i havent left the house. i know i have no friends. no one likes me dude! you know that! literally everyone knows that! i told you when i moved here that you wont have to worry about ppl coming over or getting locked out of the house because ill always be here cuz i have nowhere to go!!! we all know im the textbook definition of a loser, man. stop giving me that look! and stop making fun of me. i literally do nothing to you, i dont even TALK to you, why cant you leave me alone like everyone else has??? its so fucking annoying. im so tired of sitting alone with nothing to do, ive been doing it for 16 years already all i want is someone 2 actually LIKE me.