[10JUL24] struggling T_T

i have spent the last 5 hours trying to find a free, offline wysiwyg editor or something similar to help me write up my blog posts for my website and gotten NOWHERE. so ive given up and am just writing out a blog post here. actully as im writing, i should mention another reason i wanted to type my blog post up with something else is so i have spellcheck but now i have no spellcheck here either?!?!? gonna loose it... anyway i wanted to do a blog post on my website since i want to focus more of my energy over there after i just got up my new layout but at this point i just want to get something out SOMEWHERE.

anyway, there are literally so many things i want to write about piling up and im getting very frustrated i don't know where to start. im just feeling very frustrated because im feeling like im not keeping up with *important irl things* very well and then when i have time to myself im not even getting the stuff i want to do done. cattywampus is a very cool word that would very accurately describe how im going right now, if you will.

OH and i impulsively bought $25 worth of clothes from the op shop today. i cannot afford to be spending $25 on clothes right now, but that is what ive done :') if i had the motivation ive wanted to start a clothing journal (words arent wording rn??) and show you what ive bought but i seriously do not have the energy for it.

uhhhhh... anyway im going to get up and go for a stretch and get myself a nice big slice of cake and then maybe go to bed and hope i can resolve some of my stresses tomorrow morning. wish me luck. i hope youre doing well. and thank you for reading ｡ﾟ(TヮT)ﾟ｡